My dog is even more ill today. He is hardly moving and he is throwing up everything he eats.

I was watching something the other day where one of the characters emphasized that one part of farm life is accepting that life and death are all part of the same cycle. I should try and understand that more.

In a moment of desperation I thought of giving up my dog for adoption to someone who would take better care of him in his illness. But that would be selfish. He gave me a lot of joy and if he is to die, I should help him in this too.